Saturday, April 12, 2014

PENSEES

 PENSEES


BY


FRANK A VOLLMER
 Wildflowers




WILDFLOWERS

YOU SOMEHOW EXPECT THEM BY THE SIDE OF THE ROAD
LIKE SOMEONE PUT THEM THERE FOR PRETTY
BUT WHEN YOU LEAVE THE ROAD
WHEN YOU SAY TO YOURSELF
I'LL WALK TO THAT TREE OR HILL
OR I'LL WALK STRAIGHT NORTH
AND OFF YOU GO
THROUGH THICKET AND BRIARS
AND COOL WOODED SLOPE
AND THERE YOU FIND THEM
IN PLACES
NOT EASILY REACHED
OR OFTEN PASSED
THE EARLY SPRING FLOWERS
SPRING BEAUTY
VIOLET
MARSH MARIGOLD
FIDDLE HEADS OF EMERGING FERN

WHAT A WASTE
WHY NOT SAVE THEM ALL FOR THE ROADSIDE
WHERE EVERYONE CAN SEE THEM
BUT HERE IN A HIDDEN CORNER
ARE THEY A LURE
ARE THEY A REWARD
FOR STRIKING OUT ON ONE'S OWN
ARE THEY A GIFT FOR FINDING OUT
WHAT WEALTH INHABITS A BIT OF EARTH

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME
THAT NOW I SEE THINGS THAT I ONCE RUSHED BY
IS IT AGE THE GROWING OLDER
THAT MAKES ME MORE REFLECTIVE
IS IT THE SLOWING DOWN
WHICH MAKES ME THRILL TO SPRING TIME QUICKENING
IS IT THE SLOWING DOWN
WHICH MAKES ME FEEL A KINSHIP TO AUTUMN

I DO NOT KNOW
I ONLY KNOW
I HAVE THIS URGE
TO FIND OUT WHAT IS OFF THE ROAD
OR ON TOP OF THE HILL
OR IN THE VALLEY
AS IF I WERE COUNTING DAYS
AND FOUND THE DAYS NOT QUITE ENOUGH
NOT QUITE ENOUGH HOURS UNTIL SUNSET

WHEN I AM DONE I GO HOME
TIRED
HAPPY
 A LITTLE SAD
THAT I HAVE SPENT SO MUCH TIME
RUSHING
TO WHERE
I DID NOT WANT TO GO

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I Was Mom's Favorite




I WAS MOM’S FAVORITE



IN MY MOTHER'S COFFIN
WERE PLACED FOUR ROSES
ATTACHED TO THEM WAS A CARD
THAT SAID
FROM YOUR FAVORITES

A SEMI-SERIOUS GAME
MY THREE SISTERS
AND I HAVE PLAYED
MOST OF OUR LIVES
THE GAME OF
WHO WAS MOM'S FAVORITE

I HAVE RECEIVED BIRTHDAY CARDS
FROM MY SISTERS
THAT SAID FOR MY BIRTHDAY
MOM GAVE ME FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS
WHAT DID SHE GIVE YOU

OR HAS MOM TOLD YOU YET
THAT YOU WERE ADOPTED

IT WAS A SILLY GAME
IT WAS A FUN GAME
MOM ENJOYED IT.
THOUGH IN SECRET
SHE TOLD ME
THAT I WAS HER FAVORITE

LATELY I'VE SUSPECTED
THAT SHE TOLD MY SISTERS THE SAME THING

LUTHER
AS A YOUNG MAN
AS A YOUNG MONK
CERTAINLY DID NOT THINK HIMSELF
AS GODS FAVORITE

LUTHER AS A RESULT
OF HOW HE WAS TAUGHT RELIGION
HAD EVOLVED A SET OF FOUR QUESTIONS
FROM WHICH HE COULD NOT ESCAPE
THEY WERE


CAN YOU BE FREE FROM SIN
NOOOO HE ANSWERED

IS THERE A DAY OF JUDGMENT
YESSSS HE ANSWERED

IS GOD INDIFFERENT TO SIN
NOOOO HE ANSWERED

WILL YOU BE DAMMED FOR YOUR SINS
YESSSS HE ANSWERED

LUTHER HAD NO TROUBLE
UNDERSTANDING WHAT NATHAN SAID
IN WHICH GOD IS QUOTED AS SAYING
BECAUSE YOU DAVID HAVE SINNED
YOUR CHILD MUST DIE.

THERE WAS NO LOVE IN LUTHER'S GOD
WHEN HE WAS A YOUNG MAN

BUT JESUS SAID TO PETER
PETER DO YOU LOVE ME
YES LORD I DO
PETER FEED MY LAMBS

 AGAIN JESUS ASKED PETER
PETER DO YOU LOVE ME
LORD YOU KNOW I DO
FEED MY SHEEP


 A THIRD TIME JESUS ASKED
PETER DO YOU LOVE ME
TO WHICH
IF PETER HAD GROWN UP IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD
HE WOULD HAVE SAID
YO JESUS I ALREADY TOLD YOU TWICE

BUT PETER SAID
LORD YOU KNOW EVERYTHING
YOU KNOW MY HEART,
YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU
 JESUS SAID FEED MY LAMBS

THIS SCENE TO ME
IS ONE OF THE TENDEREST SCENES
IN THE NEW TESTAMENT

I VISION PETER
AS A BIG INARTICULATE BEAR OF A MAN
GIVEN TO RASH ACTION
STRIVING HARD TO FOLLOW THE LORD
SHOOTING HIMSELF IN THE FOOT AS HE GOES.
SUFFERING FROM FOOT IN MOUTH DISEASE
AS WITNESSED BY WHAT HAPPENED NEXT
FOR PETER TURNS AROUND
 SPIES JOHN
RUMORED TO BE JESUS' FAVORITE
 HE SAYS
WHAT ABOUT THAT MAN
 JESUS SAYS
WHAT IS THAT TO YOU
IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.

TOP TO BOTTOM IN ZERO SECONDS
GOES PETER
GO PETER

EVERY MORNING WHEN I WASH MY FACE
I THINK I SEE PETER.

TOP TO BOTTOM IN ZERO SECONDS
GO PETER



THERE WAS A MAN
WHO HAD TWO SONS
THE YOUNGER ONE SAID
FATHER GIVE ME ALL THAT IS MINE
I WANT TO LEAVE.

THE FATHER DID AS THE SON REQUESTED
 THE YOUNG MAN WENT OFF
SPENT ALL HIS MONEY
ENDING UP EATING WITH THE PIGS

HE SAID TO HIMSELF
MY FATHERS SERVANTS LIVE BETTER THAN THIS.
I WILL RISE AND GO TO MY FATHER
 BEG HIM TO LET ME BE ONE OF HIS SERVANTS

EVERY EVENING SINCE THE SON HAD LEFT
THE FATHER HAD CLIMBED A HILLSIDE
FOR A BETTER VIEW
HE HAD WATCHED
AND WAITED FOR HIS SON TO RETURN


WHEN HE SAW HIM AT A DISTANCE
AT A LONG LONG DISTANCE
WHEN HE SAW HIM AT A DISTANCE
HE RECOGNIZED HIS WALK
AS ONLY A PARENT CAN KNOW A CHILD'S WALK.

WHEN HE SAW HIM AT A DISTANCE
AT A LONG LONG DISTANCE
HE RAN TO HIM LAUGHING
 CRYING
 SHOUTING
MY SON HAS RETURNED
THE ONE I THOUGHT WAS LOST
HAS RETURNED

 HE RAN TO HIM
EMBRACED HIM
BEAR HUGGED HIM SO TIGHT
THAT THE SON'S MUMBLED
I WANT TO BE ONE OF YOUR SERVANTS
WAS NEVER HEARD

WAS NEVER HEARD
IN THE FATHER S EXUBERANT JOY

HIS COMING HOME
WAS MESSAGE ENOUGH


NOW YOU AND I
AT SOME TIME IN OUR LIVES
WE ARE THE OLDER BROTHER.
THE ONE WHO DID EVERY THING RIGHT.
WE SEE THE HAPPINESS OF THE FATHER
 HOW THE FATHER HAS RESTORED
THE YOUNGER BROTHER
TO A PLACE OF HONOR
 WE ARE JEALOUS.

I THINK IF THIS WASN'T A BIBLE STORY
WE WOULD ALL THINK
THAT THE OLDER BROTHER
WAS POORLY TREATED

BUT THAT IS EXACTLY
WHAT JESUS WANTS US TO THINK
ABOUT THIS STORY

LEFT TO OUR OWN JUDGMENTS
THE YOUNGER SON
WOULD HAVE BEEN BANISHED FROM THE FARM

ALL HONOR GIVEN TO THE OLDER SON
WHO HAD DONE NO WRONG

WE WOULD HAVE BEEN WILLING
TO KILL THE BABY TOO
BECAUSE SIN NEEDS PUNISHMENT
IN OUR MIND

BUT JESUS WANTS US TO KNOW
THAT WHAT
WAS
IS NO
MORE

THAT BECAUSE OF HIS DEATH
HIS RESURRECTION
THE LOVE OF GOD FOR HIS CREATURES
HAS BECOME IRRATIONAL,
DOES NOT GO BY RULES
BY WHICH WE FEEL COMFORTABLE
THAT WHEN GOD LOOKS AT US
THAT WE ARE ALL INDIVIDUALLY
HIS FAVORITE

THAT HIS FORGIVENESS IS THERE
BEFORE WE SIN
WHILE WE SIN
 AFTER WE SIN
THAT ALL WE HAVE TO DO
IS ASK FORGIVENESS
 TRY TO SIN NO MORE

THIS IS THE LESSON MARTIN LUTHER LEARNED
WHILE STUDYING THE SCRIPTURES
THAT GOD LOVED HIM
INDIVIDUALLY AND TOTALLY
THAT FORGIVENESS WAS FREE
AND FREELY GIVEN

THIS IS THE LESSON PETER LEARNED
THAT GOD LOVED HIM
GOOD TIMES AND BAD.
WHETHER STRONGLY DEFENDING JESUS
WITH A SWORD
OR COWERING BEFORE A SERVANT MAID’S GLANCE

HE WAS LOVED BEFORE
DURING
AND AFTER

HE WAS LOVED

THIS IS A LESSON MY MOTHER
TAUGHT MY SISTERS AND I
I WILL LOVE YOU TOTALLY
 INDIVIDUALLY WITH ALL MY HEART


 THE LESSON IS
THAT EACH OF US
INDIVIDUALLY
IS GOD’S FAVORITE
THAT WHEN HE LOOKS ON US
HIS CREATION
ALL IS FORGOTTEN
AND FORGIVEN
EXCEPT HIS LOVE FOR US



OUR GOD HAS CARVED OUR NAME
ON THE PALM OF HIS HAND
THAT OUR NAME MIGHT ALWAYS BE BEFORE HIM

THAT EACH OF US
HAS A SPECIAL PLACE
IN HIS HEART

 OVER THE DOOR
OF THAT PLACE
IS A SIGN THAT SAYS
HOME OF MY FAVORITE
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NURSING HOME VISIT



I HAVE A DAUGHTER
OF WHOM
I AM EXTREMELY PROUD

WHO IS THIS WOMAN
THAT TENDS MY HANDS
 ASKS ME QUESTIONS
ABOUT HOMES I SHOULD REMEMBER

SOMETIMES THE SNOW WHIRLS
 BLOTS THE LANDSCAPE OF MY HORIZON

WHO IS THIS WOMAN
THAT PRATTLES ON

I HAVE A DAUGHTER
OF WHOM
I AM EXTREMELY PROUD

THE SNOW TWIRLS
THE SNOW WHIRLS
THE LANDSCAPE IS CHANGED
IN ITS PASSING

WHO IS THIS WOMAN
DOING MY HAIR

I HAVE A DAUGHTER
OF WHOM
I AM EXTREMELY PROUD
 A MESSAGE THAT MUST BE TOLD

BUT THE SNOW WHIRLS
THE SNOW TWIRLS

I HAVE A DAUGHTER
OF WHOM
I AM EXTREMELY PROUD
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LET US SING A DIRGE ABOUT DIVES
WHO SUPPED AT A BANQUET TABLE
WHILE UNDERNEATH SAT LAZARUS
WAITING FOR CRUMBS
FROM BREAD
DIVES USED
TO CLEAN HIS GREASY HANDS

FOOD FOR THE DOGS
WHO LICKED HIS SORES

HE FELT GRATEFUL FOR THE CRUMBS

DIVES DIVES
WHY ARE YOU THERE
IN HELL
WHAT DID YOU DO WRONG

NOTHING

THEN WHY ARE YOU HERE

BECAUSE LAZARUS WAS INVISIBLE TO ME

I NEVER BEAT HIM
OR CHASED HIM FROM MY TABLE

HE WAS INVISIBLE TO ME

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THE SHEPHERD LOOKED AT THE STARS

SO CLEAR IN THE AIR

SO BRIGHT IN THE NIGHT

HE LOST HIMSELF

IN THE WONDER OF A GOD

WHO COULD CREATE A UNIVERSE

SO GREAT

I WONDER IF HE TENDS IT

LIKE I DO MY SHEEP

DOES HE FUSS WHEN THEY ARE SICK

CRY WHEN THEY DIE

BE ANGRY WHEN THEY ARE LOST

HAPPY WHEN THEY ARE FOUND

THE SHEPHERD SAT

HE WATCHED THE STARS

CONTENT

KNOWING THAT GOD

WAS SHEPHERDING HIM

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Goats and Lambs


THE GOATS WERE BROUGHT INTO THE BARN
AFTER THEIR DAY IN THE FIELD

THEY COULDN’T STAND THE COLD

BUT THE SHEEP REMAINED OUTSIDE
WARM IN THEIR COAT

MILKING THE GOAT WAS WOMEN’S WORK
A DEBAUCHED WOMEN WAS CALLED A GOAT

THE GOATS WERE BLACK
THE SHEEP WOOL WHITE

THE GOATS WERE PROMISCUOUS
THEY SHARED THEIR MATES
THE SHEEP DID NOT

OUT OF ALL THIS FOLKLORE
JESUS SPUN A TALE
USING IMAGES THE PEOPLE UNDERSTOOD

HE STARTS BY SAYING

THE KING COMES IN GLORY

SO CRITICAL IN THE EAST
THE DEMAND FOR RESPECT

SO HE COMES IN GLORY
HE SITS ON THE GLORY THRONE

COMMANDING RESPECT
AS BEFITS A KING

HE TELLS A COMMON STORY
OF SEPARATING SHEEP FROM GOATS

SEPARATING THE GOOD
FROM THE INDIFFERENT


THEY WERE NOT COMPLETELY BAD
THE GOATS
THEY WERE INDIFFERENT

HE SAID TO THE SHEEP
WHO WERE CARING
AND HUDDLED TOGETHER FOR WARMTH

COME INTO THE KINGDOM
I HAVE PREPARED FOR YOU
 I’LL SHALL BE YOUR SHEPHERD
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Carcer





THE WORD CARCER IN LATIN
MEANS PRISON
TO INCARCERATE
MEANS
TO SEND TO PRISON


THE EARLY CHURCH
KNEW WELL
WHAT CARCER MEANT


EARLY ON THE PRISONS
COULD NOT KEEP THEM
CHAINS FELL OFF
DOORS WERE OPENED
THEY WALKED FREE


BUT LATER
CARCER MEANT
A DOORWAY
TO HEAVEN
IN FACT IT WAS A FATE
THAT MANY SOUGHT


TODAY
WE HAVE MANY
WHO WILL DIE FOR A CAUSE


WE SCOFF
FORGETTING
THAT THE CHURCH
IN ALL ITS FORMS
HAS MANY MARTYRS


SO WHERE
DOES IT END
HOW DO WE JUDGE
WHEN IT’S RIGHT
WHEN IT’S WRONG


TO PARAPHRASE PAUL
IF WHAT YOU DO
HAS NOT LOVE
THEN THE ACT
IS A CLANGING BELL
THAT IS OUT OF TUNE


BELIEFS
WHICH SHOULD
BETTER MAN
BELITTLE HIM


BETTER A WASTELAND
THEY THINK
THAN LET ANOTHER
SURVIVE


THE CHURCH
HAS A POOR TRACK RECORD
OF LETTING THE OTHER SURVIVE


IF WHAT WE DO
HASN’T GOT LOVE
MANY THINK
IT’S NAMBY-PAMBY


BUT TO LOVE ANOTHER
AT COST TO ONESELF


IS LIKE PETER
MEETING CHRIST ON THE ROAD
ASKING
QUO VADIS DOMINE


THE ANSWER
LED PETER
BACK TO ROME
TO DIE
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Fear Not






IT WAS THE EVENING

A COOL BREEZE WAS BLOWING

WELCOME RELIEF FROM THE SUN


THE BIRDS

HAD SETTLED

FOR THE EVENING

PERCHING ON TREE AND HOUSE


SHE WAS FINISHING HER PRAYERS

WITH

MAY MESSIAH COME

WHEN SHE HEARD A SOUND

AS IF

A LATE ARRIVING BIRD HAD COME


SHE SAW AN ANGEL

SHE HEARD A VOICE

SAYING

GOD’S CONSTANT GREETING

BE NOT AFRAID


THE CHOICE WAS HERS

THE CHOICE IS OURS

TO LET GOD SWELL WITHIN US


WHEN WE SAY SON OF MAN

WE MEAN JUST LIKE HIS FATHER

WHEN WE SAY SON OF GOD

WE MEAN JUST LIKE HIS FATHER


GOD WAITED

LIKE AN ANXIOUS SUITOR

FOR A YES


GOD WAITS

LIKE AN ANXIOUS SUITOR

FOR US TO SAY YES

TO BE FILLED WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT

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Coin







WHOSE IMAGE IS PRESSED UPON THE COIN

A MAN’S HE ANSWERS

HOW MUCH IS IT WORTH
THEY ARE ALL VALUED THE SAME

HOW CAN THAT BE

THEIR MAKER DETERMINES THEIR VALUE





GIVE TO CAESAR HIS DUE

BUT GIVE TO GOD FULL VALUE

ANYTHING WHICH DIMINISHES A MAN

IS WRONG

ANYTHING WHICH DEBASES THE COIN

IS WRONG

THE COIN’S IMAGE

IS AN ECHO OF GOD’S FACE





BUT WE ARE ALL THE IMPORTANT PEOPLE

THE REST OF THEM ARE RABBLE

YOU ARE ALL OF THE SAME VALUE

BUT…BUTBUT..BUTBUTBUT…


IS YOUR EYE JEALOUS

BECAUSE I AM GOOD

HOW DARE YOU CALL INFERIOR

WHAT I HAVE MADE

HOW DARE YOU

TRY TO CHEAPEN

ANOTHER’S COIN

IF YOU TRY

YOU ARE ONLY HOARDING DUST

AND YOUR WEALTH

IS ONLY SAND TRICKLING THROUGH YOUR FINGERS

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I’VE BEEN READING ABOUT THE REFORMATION



THE MORNING STARS THAT PRECEDED IT



LIKE HUS AND WYCLIFFE



ABOUT NOBLES WHO KEPT A HOUSE PRIEST

WHO AFTER DALLYING WITH THEIR MISTRESS

WOULD CONFESS

AND BE RIGHT AGAIN



ABOUT HOW MANY MOVEMENTS

BOTH WITHIN AND OUTSIDE THE CHURCH

CALLED FOR ITS RETURN

TO EARLY POVERTY



SO THAT CHURCH LIFE

MIGHT MORE CLOSELY RESEMBLE

PEOPLE’S LIFE



AND BE TAUGHT THEM IN A LANGUAGE

THEY COULD UNDERSTAND



BUT AFTER THE BREAK

ARE WE ANY BETTER



DO WE LOVE OUR NEIGHBOR

AS OURSELVES

IF HE IS DIFFERENT



IN FAITH

RACE

NATIONALITY



DO WE PREACH LOVE

AND PRACTICE HATRED



IF CHRIST CAME

WOULD WE KILL HIM FOR BEING A JEW



AS WE KILLED SIX MILLION CHRISTS



AND THE CHURCH WAS SILENT



MILLIONS OF AFRICANS

ARE DYING NOW

SO FEW CARE



WE’D RATHER INVADE A COUNTRY FOR OIL



BUT WHEN CHURCH AND STATE ARE JOINED

WE HAVE LUTHER BETRAYING THE PEASANTS



OR COUNSELING THE PRINCE

TO PRACTICE ADULTERY

QUIETLY



AND FINALLY

AGREEING TO DIVORCE



WHEN WE LOOK AT THE BROKEN LANDSCAPE

OF THE CHURCH



EACH ONE LOOKING AT THE SHATTERED SHARD

OF THE MIRROR



SAYING

THEIRS IS THE TRUE REFLECTION



HOW MANY FACES HAS THE TRUTH



BUT ALMOST FROM THE BEGINNING

WE’VE HAD DISSENSION



WE’VE HAD

PAUL VERSUS PETER

JEW VERSUS GENTILE

PURE VERSUS IMPURE FOOD



WOULD NOT A BETTER LITMUS TEST BE

NOT WHAT WE BELIEVE

BUT WHAT WE DO



DOES KNOWING THE HYPOSTATIC UNION

MAKE ONE HOLY

IS IT NOT BETTER

TO LIVE THE WORD





AND WHAT IS THAT WORD

WRITTEN ON OUR HEARTS



LOVE GOD

LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR

THE REST IS COMMENTARY

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MY GRANDFATHER USED TO FILL MY HEAD
WITH TALES OF MONSTERS OF THE SEA
OF STORMS

OF THE WEE PEOPLE
THAT WOULD GET ME
IF I WAS NOT HOME FOR TEA

NOW I AM GROWN
AND KNOW THE TALES TO BE
GRANDPOP'S FAIRY TALES FOR ME

BUT STILL
WHENEVER I AM ON DEEP WATER
I WAIT FOR THE DRAGON HEAD TO EMERGE

MY HANDS ACHE
WHERE HE WOULD SQUEEZE THEM
AND I HAVE THIS DESIRE
FOR TEA

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